Thursday, December 31, 2015

2016 New Years Resolutions (with updates)

Happy New Years Eve! I love new years resolutions and making lists of things I want to do...I am only mildly type A.

Here are my lists for this year....what are your resolutions?

New Years Resolutions:

1. Enjoy the moment

2. Less Swearing

3. More exercising

4. Less clean...Pack lunches

5. Plan less...enjoy more

6. Have patience for life's timeline

7. Laugh and find the joy in the little things

2016 To Do List - A work in progress, to be added to as I think of them  

1. Re do blog design and BLOG. (DONE)

2. Cook all the recipes in the Detox cook book (argh, why did I say this one?)

3. Do a 5km run this summer (Have started the C25K training again, this year it will happen!)

4. Finish a knitting project (of the 5 I have on the go) DONE, a dish cloth

5. Learn to do something new

6. Go on a Champagne 30th Birthday Trip (Planned, Traveled, DONE :( - NYC in May 2016)

7. Plan another summer camping trip (Planned-ish lol)

8. Re do upstairs bathroom (DONE, see pictures here)

9. Complete full house organization/dump/donate/organize (work in progress)

10. Do something with all the pictures I have taken in the last 2 years (Work in progress done a 2015 photo book, now I need to do a 2014 and will keep an ongoing one for 2016 to make life easier! - TG for Iphoto!)

                                Wishing you and your family a wonderful NEW YEARS EVE!

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

So long 2015...looking forward to a brighter, better 2016!

Well this has been a year...

One that tested our patience, faith, relationship and personal strength. In this previous post I filled you in on our journey to babies, and unfortunately the update is not what I hoped it would be.

In July, I had my 3rd miscarriage and as I write this I am waiting to schedule our 4th pregnancy to end. To face 2 miscarriages on Christmas, 2 years in a row, has been very difficult, especially when you add in our wedding anniversary on Dec 28th. Overall we have been trying for a year and a half with 4 m.c in the last year.

We have been seeing a fertility specialist for a year, and have done some testing that has revealed nothing. This current pregnancy has gone the furthest, I should be 9 weeks, although the baby has not developed to that level and while we had a heart beat last week, today there was not one. We see the Dr. tomorrow (NYE lol) to find out what we do to end this pregnancy - D and C or the pills.

I have felt numb, detached, and nearly inconsolable. 2015 should have been sponsored by Kleenex.

This should have been our announcement in January....
Pregnancy Annoucement winter

I share this because infertility and miscarriage loss is a lonely, lonely place. I have found a few bloggers who have shared their journey and I have found that the most comforting of all. (If you are interested check out A Slice of Style.) Although, we are also very lucky to have many amazing friends and family who have been very supportive. I believe the only way to survive such a trying experience is to be open, because this is not something you can get through on your own. Thank you to my family and friends who have been there for us this last year. I am sure they may have had no idea what to say, but you didn't need to,  just being there, giving a hug is all that we have needed. what? At our last appointment with the specialist we asked, if this doesn't work - then what? As the planner in me needed Plan B. He suggested that we move straight to IVF to ensure they can select an egg and sperm with the best chance at surviving. So I guess petrie dish baby or babies lol it is! I will update this blog with our IVF journey and possibly our road to adoption. Whatever it takes, we are in!

In the mean time we have something VERY exciting to look forward to! In 2 weeks we will be travelling to Singapore for the wedding of our very dear friends Shalini and Zee, followed by a whirlwind trip of Thailand, Cambodia and Hong Kong. This will be the perfect getaway and I cannot tell you how excited we are to visit with these dear friends and see them get married!

Goodbye piece of sh*t lol...we welcome 2016 with open arms!